Its already 5 something in the morning and I tried to sleep but I couldn't plus with all the snoring from my parents I couldn't relax myself to bed. A lot of things in my mind. My brain is very active but I'm mentally very tired. There's a lot of things I want to do and when this many things jumble up together, I end up not doing anything coz of no mood and stress. I got a bad habit that when I'm stress, I end up being lazy and ignore things until the very last minute believing that, "I'll manage it tmr." I have too many "tmrs" and end up frustrating myself. Bad habit is hard to change. I'm still trying to change but I know that my determination and will is not really that strong. I'm too used to slumber-ness and I let this slumber-ness take over me most of the time. It is getting hard to motivate myself. I find myself getting less genki-er than usual.

p/s: I'm not emo-ing or depress, just mentally very tired... My mom going to pipiak me if I don't sleep anytime soon... gahh!

( Yesterday is a Movie Day )

( Today I drive Auto and Manual... )

Lately I feel my hands shakes a lot although I think I have enough sleep but don't know why my hand shakes so badly... X__X;;; I need to relax a bit... ahhh... Haven't been feeling 100% genki... Feel my art sense is degrading so badly... yea.. I should be more confidence with my self though... I have a horrible low self-esteem which leads to why I always apologize although it's getting on people's nerve... I feel lotsa shits that I can't forsee is happening lately but I am trying not to be too sensitive because if being over sensitive means more shits drop on you... haha... Anyways... enough with shits... I shall chill a bit and then go off to bed...

p/s : I find myself really bad in conversations... I can't seems to start conversations lately... I talk then stopped. Dunno what to say and feeling lost. Is it boring if I can't start conversations? even if someone is talking something, I dunno how to reply them.. I'm quiet when there's no teasings going around... I'm only good in teasing people with my weird imaginations... normal topics I'm bad... gahh! here I go with my low self-esteem.. I seem to mind a lot about how my well being affects others... sigh... *slaps self and stabs self* orz...

Finally I got the mood to update about the Happy New Year trip to Penang last year XD I can't exactly remember what happen but I'll try to remember and post some pics! =)

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lol.. I think the personality test is half inaccurate but yada yada~~ 8D Anyhow... I nearly thought I failed for Tammie's modeling class because I was ask to go for her extra classes next week... Well.. hopefully that I will pass this term... A bit worry about me failing... XD kinda remember kitsunei entry about how we do things coz we want to fail... hmmm...

Thinking of updating my color_lounge but always forget... +___+ I wanna finish up some wip works first... Feel so degraded when I draw on paper. Too much computer work edi until I don't really know how to handle pencil properly... I really miss life drawing, still life drawing... all the sketching classes... T___T ahhh sobs! Should organize my own version of life drawing XD hahaha anyhow... Not much time is left... hmmm rawrrr...

Today is Earth hour Day... So off all your lights/applicance for 1 hour today from 8pm-9pm! This is to create awareness for the changes of climate weathers and save powers.

For more info pls refer to NST news or Wikipedia

For the love of nature :)

Yo people... I know it's late but Happy Chinese New Year and Happy Belated Valentines. My life have been going fine exclude the ups and downs of my emotions lol.. I'm happy at times and also emo in time as well but I know I am still alive at least so I should be grateful. Dunno what to update about... Before this I wanted to update about my trip to Penang last year for New Year and my 2008 CNY but I gotten lazy =w= Lately I feel so empty and no mood to do any assignments... Haiz... Sometimes I think if I choose the right course lolz but what the heck! just go on with it nay?? XD Just hope I pass this term and the subjects I worry the most now is 3D animation basics and 3D Advanced Modeling because I'm really bad at it. :(

You know... Everyone says I'm blur but seriously, am I really that blur? I try no to be blur so much and try to understand things but sometimes I just can't X( I get sad when people say I'm so blur... Lately I've gotten more sensitive which is so not good for my unstable emotions that goes up and down. Such a thrilled ride lol. I hoping to get out of college and work and get some money soon >< but working world is another whole new responsibilities. Life is short so I gotta cherish every moment. Trying to control my bad emotion swings >< waaaaa! Teh-O! What had happen to your cheeriness! T^T sob sob

Anyways, I can't remember what I wanna talk about liao lolz talking about having poor memories.. clumpsy me XD; Kla, till next update... Cya guys!

Ooo I remember liao! : Yesterday I went to Shogun to eat with terra86, joesalvation, flowerchorus, Nerv and Eva! Sadly kitmun couldn't join us >< we will go there again! I wanna try Jogoya one day but its RM100++ orz... I've been craving for sushis so much lolz XD salmon~~~~

p/s : I change my lj layout.. Very simple one.. XD click on teh_o if u wanna see it XD

Seriously... Thai ads are really geng! lol! damn funny and hilarious also!! XD;;;  I really love the first one... feel so otaku ish suddenly lolz XP

Sidenote: Today watch Cloverfield and the movie was kinda short coz its about 1 hour plus but it was ok so far... not too bad 8D then went to art jam... It was fun... XDDD wish I could have chatted more.. I hope terra86 like the drawing i did for her ><

Second post of the Year in LJ! XDDDD and It is meme I ganked from my f-list!

∴first impressions meme∴

We've all had them when we first meet people. Even our best of friends. Sometimes it's nice to hear what people first thought of us and if we've changed for the better or worse since then.

I'm ready to know your impressions! *_* uwahhzzz!!!

p/s: just to let you guys know I'm fine in college and I pass all my subjects (such a late informing) just that my maya really cacat orz... I'm so bad at modeling *_*;;; orz!!!!

random note : TF2 (Team Fortress 2) is a really nice game to play with one bunch of friends and SCOUT FTW!!!!!! XDDDDD

It's already near end of December. Time flies so fast and then New Year is just next week! haha Looking at kids now make me think back that I was as naughty as them too XP lmao! Now getting older day by day and then the way I think is slowly developing. kaka okok, enough with this nonsense XD

I'm already in my 20s. Well I'm still the same, nothing much change, still as naive as ever but I'm not innocent as well. kakaka XD Would like to thank everyone who wishes me from sms to msges on msn! It was really lovely =)

lol, my grandparents are both guys and my brother is actually a girl??? @@ *look at silvennia* XDXDXD *runs away* bergaya_haru is my pet!!! hahaha, yee jenn, u've become my pet XDXDXD lmao.. *runs*

To those who dunno yet, I've cut my hair real short. when look at me in front, you might thought I tied my hair but actually I cut my hair already... hahahah it feels so light that it can just float away and its easier to maintain...

TOA so far so good I think...? Term break is coming soon which I can't wait... I am getting alot of headaches lately. sometimes one part of my brain hurts... lol.. well, shud be ok now since I get some good good rest yesterday but feeling a bit dizzy. sleeping inconsistently is bad ):

Anyways... must finish some works today so I can get more good rest. It is myself who is always digging the grave DX Now that pyramid got EZ2Dancer (YES!!!) It is the original machine from TS! The one with all the korean songs and other remixes one!!! X3 Now I can go there and lose weight once in a while! wheeee~~~ kononla XD

To all TOA students, don't too overstress ne? ganbatte! term break is near... term break still got things to do but at least shud be able to get some good rest too! hahaha...

Some really short updates.
Few weeks has past and this are the movies that I had watch recently:

-Shrek 3 was a ok movie just that the story move a bit too fast... not enough development X_X
-Not many ppl like POTC3 but somehow I really like the movie... I think coz I just watch POTC2 then suddenly watch POTC3 so no need wait too long. I was hoping for more Davy Jones story with Calypso and some story about Jack and his family! hahaha
- Transformers was cool. Well no need to say much since my f-list is flooded with how cool is Transformers. lol. Those who havent watch, go watch it. To be honest with you... I find the plot for the movie was quite normal, nothing relly special. They made the classic into something very modern and cool thus the movie was cool! no offence ok?? Just my opinion only >_< But the CG was awesome! And I love Bumble Bee! so cute! hahaha...

Thats bout it for movie. Anyways, I submitted my gempak entry edi... haha.. knowing a lot of geng artist joining, I doubt I would have any chances... A lot of TOA students/Tutors/lecturers joining the competition... hahah ...but I hope I could at least get consolation rofl! XD Well, at least Gempak made me draw some stuff! XP

Nothing much to say, This weeks is exploration week but not exactly holiday... have to catch up in assignments and some replacement classes X_X at least can get MORE sleep!XD

I guess thats about it in my journal... >_< Hope everyone is doing fine since I suddenly see drama in my f-list ^^; well... just hope things will be back to normal! Lotsa love to you guys in F-list! Do take care! God bless

Hello everyone, hope everyone is doing well and healthy ^_^ I finally got myself to type this journal out! lol! I've been very very lazy and can't seems to get my mood up lately...

( What happen last week... )

Anyways, I uploaded a lot of songs to share with you all! :D
First is requested by _kazeki_! The Avenue Q songs! The Broadway group that sang "The Internet is for Porn" and "If You were Gay"!! The songs damn amusing! anyways! here is the tracklist:

01 - The Avenue Q Theme Song
02 - It Sucks To Be Me
03 - If You Were Gay
04 - Purpose
05 - Everyone's A Little Bit Racist
06 - The Internet Is For Porn
07 - Mix Tape
08 - I'm Not Wearing Underwear Today (LOL! XD)
09 - Special
10 - You Can Be as Loud as the Hell You Want (When You're Makin' Love) [This song is disturbing]
11 - Fantasies Come True
12 - My Girlfriend (Who Lives in Canada)
13 - Fine Line
14 - There Is Life Outside Your Apartment
15 - The More You Ruv Someone
16 - Schadenfreude
17- I Wish I Could Go Back To College
18 - The Money Song
19 - School For Monsters
20 - There's a Fine, Fine Line (Reprise) - What Do You Do With a BA in English (Reprise)
21 - For Now

Click here to download

Next is requested by dustyhawk! Vanessa Mae's Platinum Collection Album! Finally uploaded! Here is the song tracklist:

Disc 1
01 - Toccata and Fugue in D Minor
02 - Contradanza
03 - Classical Gas
04 - Theme From -Caravans-
05 - Warm Air
06 - Jazz Will Eat Itself
07 - Widescreen
08 - Tequila Mockingbird
09 - City Theme
10 - Red Hot

Click here to download

Disc 2
01 - Summer Haze
02 - Storm
03 - Retro
04 - Bach Street Prelude
05 - Leyenda
06 - (I) Can, Can (You-)
07 - Happy Valley
08 - A Poet's Quest (For a Distant Paradise)
09 - Embrasse Moi (You Fly Me up)
10 - Aurora
11 - I'm A Doun
12 - I Feel Love
13 - Hocus Pocus
14 - The Blessed Spirits

Click here to download

Disc 3
01 - Preludio
02 - Loure
03 - Gavotte En Pondeau
04 - Penuet I
05 - Penuet II
06 - Bourree
07 - Gigue
08 - Scherzo In C Minor For Violin And Piano
09 - Romance N.2 In F for Violin And Orchestra Op.50
10 - Introduction Crave
11 - Adagio Cantabile
12 - Allegro
13 - Adagio
14 - Andante Sostenuto
15 - Finale - Allegro Guerriero
16 - I'm A-Doun For Lack O'Johnie (A Little Scottish Fantasy)

Click here to download

Last but not least:
Tartini's Devil's Trill Perform By Vanessa Mae!

hahaha... Massive mp3 uploaded... Sorry that I didn't upload file by file... Very mahfan if upload file by file cause internet sucky >_< anyways hope you enjoy the music!

Extra : Pls visit the following link if you're too bored! :P
1 Click Award
Amazing continuation of Art!O_o

List of Assignments to be done!
1. Cartoon Character Design - 0% (Pass up tmr! lol)
2. Typography - 60% (pass up this Friday)
3. Drawing For 2D Animation - 0% (Pass up this Friday)
4. Life Drawing 2 - 0% (Pass up next week Monday)
5. 2D Animation - 0% (Pass up next Week Tuesday)
6. Moral - 0% (Pass up next week Wednesday)

Thats all for today! Ganbatte Minna-san! ^_^

( What I did yesterday... )

( My LJ Mojo )

maxsterism! I only manage to upload one song coz today my internet damn slow and I dunno why DX! so here is one song from Clazziquai!

Clazziquai - Come Alive

I'll try uploading some more later on! so wait for me~~~ XD
I would like to pimp this guys artworks for you guys to see and his name is Jason! haha A guy from Massive Black... Its a big studio sumwhere! lol
heres the link:

http://www.jasonchanart.com/

You guys might have seen some of his works before but really his works are so cool! I wanna CG like him too!! Orz... GANBATTEH!!! >_<
Anyways, here are some random things that Nerv showed me:

FOR SPARTAAAA I SHALL DINE IN HELL!!!

The babies are so so so PINCHABLE!!! X3

And I shall end my journal with an advertisement! pls read the tag line!

LMAO! XD